I feel, I write, you read, you feel !
Performing at Poetic Release: Impact in May.
Poetry: ‘Hopeless’ and ‘Hard Deception’
He said I was the one
So I laughed, like I didn’t already pray two God
Who told me to let that three
He said staying sex-free was his problem
Let’s pray he can, he said
He reads his bible is what he claimed
But couldn’t understand
Said he wasn’t there yet
I agreed
My journey is hard - but I am not building a bed with rotating notches
Every night I keep my prayers up
Every day he keeps his game up
Looked at me as a conquest on his map to get the treasury
Private words and plagiarism of a Saint
Wanted to use my knickers to boast and paint
A wall of lies
OK OK wait - I like him
Yes, I would love to share the sweet pie
But as a domestic fruit of my kitchen
I cannot be baking pies
To his left
To his right
And my center
Sweet - Prayers of top
Ask God to show me this chocolates ingredients
Am I allergic to nuts?
Or do i get hyper off caramel?
This guy - this guy
He said “If God chose you for me then…”
OMG no-one has ever spat lyrics so far before
It almost reached me
Almost made me melt like his lies
The truth always resurfaces
I push for truth
I cried wolf
He robbed the hood of my patience
And ran through the forest of deception
Taking his seeds with him
To sow another innocent female
Because with me
It was just too hard!
He takes one look in the mirror and decides his life
He knows it’s meant for him
With a body chiseled from maybe stone or marble
He’s protected by his looks and charm
Only a few know of his dismay, he’s disaray
He’s true cries that his pillows feels
Why can’t anyone see the pain and hurt he sees when he looks in this mirror
The same mirror you and I will look in and see the reflection time has brought through to us
He knows the truth…
He laughs and spends and plays and parties
To come back home to reality, a place painted with lies or is it the truth
True that all he has is his pain
His memories
The
Truth
Masked
In
A
Lie
Sweet nothings that come from his jokes
Entice you to be his very best friend
Yet he laughs, a laugh sounding like disgust
Of what he truly is
A Person who knows his truth yet gives you a lie
But you do see it what the mirror sees…
You see it
His pain, his disaray, his disgust
You know the amount of tears that the pillow has soaked
You know the laughs of disgust, that chuckle heavier with every lie
And you look at the mirror with one question…
Why me?
Performing at Sho Off UK in March!! 1st ever spoken word performance
Poetry : ‘Mirrors’
He’s everything I ever wanted
He’s everything that I need
He makes me feel so special
He makes me feel so free
We talk like best friends
He makes me so happy
He’s all I ever dreamed of
Why can’t he be for me
I say the right things for him to want me
I say what’s needed as a friend
I laugh with him like an angel carefree
I’m with him till the very end
We took a new phase on our friendship
I think i’m in love with him
Our lips touched softly
And with his eyes I know exactly what he meant
The degree is he is not mine
He is with another
I feel like he’s meant for me
But with these emotions plus her why bother
He seems to feel like I feel for a split second
But when push comes to a sexual shove
He goes back to his woman
This great man this wonderful man
What exactly do I do
When I keep pushing new loves
For a chance of just us two
Do I wait while he waits for a break to an opening
When one day my heart will just pick up and leave hopelessly
Hopeless (by ayosheun) My spoken word poem…
Rose
Yeah i need saving
Rose coloured glasses keep viewing
This isnt my life is it?
Let me just stay real still and watch the sun travel south
Just like my feelings did
I laid so still and the sky change to a bluey purple kinda fade
A blur
I could see it so slowly, my minds running fast
Let me just tell you
That through rose coloured eyes
All that shit you think is great, isn’t worth the sky, clouds and birds on the horizon
Sssshhh stay still
Don’t move look the view it’s mood changed
It got angry and damn well went away
Dark purples mixed with emotional blues
Twinkle the stars and the street lights mean it’s time
Time to start all over again
Move closer
Closer to death
Closer to life
Why are we living please?!
Someone run fast go get the sun
Go get the Son tell him i need him
I stare at my silhouette
I stare at my memories
I stare at life
Sleep my child
Tomorrow is another day
Tomorrow we will watch the day go by
All
Over
Again
Call me greedy if you like
Call me a bitch if you want
But I am me
Self driven, deep rooted - Me
Yeah I want what I want
I got what I got
I don’t care, it’s all me
I want it all…
Like even what you got I want it
I’m sitting here thinking
Should I make a bomb - and blow your mind
Should I make a meal - and feed your pain
Can I decorate an art piece - and paint you a picture of how really crazy I am
How really true life can be
I can’t wait no more
Life is meant to be lived
I can’t cry no more
Life are lessons learned
I want it all
Greedy as can be
Catch me with my hands in the cookie jar
I want it all
There’s no stopping me
Inspired by Cregg Mcpherson
Medicine you stricken me…
Medicine you weaken me…
Why me?
What devil made you for my cause?
I don’t need you!
I’m brave enough, strong!
Strong for a minute
Strong for a second
I’m craving the drug, that caused me to crack
Where is the sweet stuff?
Where is my escape Give it!
I’m an addict over you
I’m an addict over life
I’m used to running, i’m used to escaping
Clearly can’t do this on my own
I need a way out
Sweet drug
Heavenly medicine
Infused me with lies….
Let me see a way out
Let me feel a blur
Let me be free
Till i crave for more pain
More pain
More pain
More pain
More pain
GIVE ME THE DAMN DRUG!
Hey you, yes you...no you, yeah yeah you
Come over here I want to talk to you
How you doing? Okay you're fine, you're well
What's your name? Oh is that right, nice name
I'm not going to lie, but you caught my eye
Simply by your sweet face and swarv looks
You make me want to know all that you are
I see you're blushing, yeah i know you know why
So what do you do? uhhuh that's amazing
Me...oh i'm a Poet
Let me get straight to the point...i'm in love
Love the moments you breathe
Love the looks you give
Huh..what do I mean?
I-I mean i think you're attractive you're beautiful
So Like I was saying, you're just an amazing person
You're blushing again...
I think you were built by angels, polished by fairies
I think we should walk into the sunset together
We'd burn? no I meant-
Ok erm...are you confused?
You're not confused so why are you being like this?
Let me hold your hand, can you feel my heart beating
That's you, you caused that
I love the way you blush
Lost for words are you, oh thats okay-
Yes i-
Ok what i was trying to say was-
Okay so-
Erm-
Yea..
Yea..
Really, wow so cool
So-
Hi Mr, i'm trying to talk !
You seem confused, you're telling me about radios and dictionaries
I just really like you Mr
Alright alright, let me hug you I want to whisper something in your ear
So do you? You don't know?
Oh
I see...
How about you turn on my radio and let me read your dictionary
No blush !
Do I want one with a thesauraus?
What?! I was using what you said to create an innuendo
Oh now you get it
Right okay, I think it's about time I go, you know i got a lot to do
You too huh?
You don't want to hurt my feelings...
But you'd rather not see me...
Things are going too fast...
Things are going too fast?!
Now i'm confused, I this woman and you this beautiful man
I just called you over to tell you you're amazing
I wanted to make you smile
You're a beautiful man, with an amazing life
But you ruined it...I give up
Let go of my hand
Free me from this headache of an attraction
This sweet pollution
Bye you
I can't hear you, i'm too far
What?
Sorry?
When am I coming back this way? We should do lunch?
Erm Mr...i'll let you know
